Saturday, 13 March 2010
Trying to be optimistic
Mr Ayak was away for a few days at the beginning of the week with his partner, doing all sorts of stuff in connection with their business venture. I've been very reluctant to get into any discussion about this, because he is so enthusiastic and I don't want to be disappointed if it doesn't work out.
He is such an optimist. He has dreams...he tries to make them reality...and sometimes they fail. I'm a realist. I keep my feet firmly on the ground and try to keep his head out of the clouds so that if things don't work out, he doesn't have so far to fall. I have a mental fight with myself over this. I so want to encourage him and share his enthusiasm, but I just hate to see him disappointed.
But for the first time yesterday, I allowed myself to listen to his plans, because I have a feeling that it may just work out this time. Fingers crossed.
Yesterday was a good day. Mr Ayak has given up looking for temporary work to tide us over until money starts coming in (probably mid-May) because there is absolutely nothing going at the moment, and he is just wasting money on petrol going out to search, when it could be better spent on food. So he has been busy digging over the garden, generally tidying up ...and we sat out in the sunshine and just enjoyed each other's company.....something that's quite rare these days.
There's always a fly in the ointment though. If Mr Ayak has something to tell me that he knows I'm not going to like, he waits until I'm in a good mood.
So there we were..sitting on the terrace drinking our coffee and enjoying the view...and he informs me that his father had phoned him yesterday to say that he will be arriving here on Monday.
He will be coming on his own this time, without mother-in-law. She left him about a month ago. I haven't mentioned it before, because I didn't know whether this was just a temporary blip. But apparently she has asked for a divorce. It must pretty serious, because Turkish women put up with an awful lot. They will tolerate a bad marriage because they feel they have no other choice, so it takes a great deal of courage to walk away after so many years.
So, although you all know I've been dreading FIL's visit, I think this one will be quite interesting.....watch this space!