We were up early this morning and had breakfast on the terrace. The sun was shining and there was a cool breeze, so we decided to finish breakfast and take the dogs for a long walk.
We feel so guilty because we hardly ever take them out. Oh they have lots of space to run around in the garden but it's not quite the same. I can't manage Beki and Poppy on my own because the lanes are too steep and Beki is just too strong for me when she's on the lead. If I let her off she runs away and takes no notice of me. She obeys Mr A because I think she responds better to a male voice.We never seem to hit on a time that's convenient for Mr Ayak and I to walk the dogs together, but this morning worked out fine.
I really need to get my camera working because I miss so many good shots. The pic above was taken some time ago by someone else, but I posted it here because it sort of covers the area we walked this morning. It was mostly fields...with tiny tracks, or no tracks at all. There was one slightly wider lane...Mr A was walking ahead and I was wading through a field of chickpeas. He turned around and said "I've found a small road and it's not too "crumpy". Crumpy? Well at a guess I think it was a mixture of words like...bumpy, crumbly. etc...but in any case it made me smile. Just another word to add to Mr Ayak's unique vocabulary along with, amongst others, "rounding" , "collybobbles", "dumbles" and "feet fingers". *
The dogs had a wonderful time...we stopped and chatted to villagers working in the fields, and before we knew it we were back in the village, having walked for more than two hours.
Some of you may remember my mentioning that in December 2008 I gave up smoking. The main reason was the fact that my first grandchild, Billy, was due in April 2009, and I didn't want his first memory of this particular grandmother to be the smell of an old ashtray. I stayed off the weeds for 7 months, and could kick myself for starting again. I'm giving up again...today...I had my last cigarette at 7 am this morning. This time I'm doing it for me. I want to feel healthier. I want to live longer...and I simply cannot afford to waste money on cigarettes when I'm actually scraping around to find money for food and other essentials.
My willpower is pretty good. If I make up my mind to do something, I will. I don't need nicotine substitutes, or therapy or self-help books. I simply have to wake up one morning and know that it's the right day to do it. It's been on my mind for months, but it was never the right day. Today was the right day. Don't ask me how I know....it's just an instinctive feeling.
Mr Ayak also wants to quit but it's so much harder for him. I have given him my remaining cigarettes and he has agreed, out of respect for me, to stop smoking in the house. He is going to attempt to cut down and eventually give up...but I have a feeling that he may well be the one who needs much more help with this.
So part of the decision to go for a long walk this morning was for me to do something entirely different to my usual routine. Having eaten breakfast I would normally switch on the laptop and sit down with a coffee and my cigarettes. Instead we just took ourselves off into the fresh air for a couple of hours, and we and the dogs are so much better for it.
* Some of Mr A's strange words...definitions:
rounding - looking around an area
collybobbles - testicles
dumbles - dumb-bells or weights
feet fingers - toes