Thursday, 14 October 2010
Sometimes I know what I'm waiting for. It can be something I have waited for with excited anticipation...like Christmas and birthdays as a child, or the arrival of a child or grandchild. Or it can be something that fills me with dread like bills when you know you don't have enough money.
I think I'm a little like my late father. I always felt that he wasn't quite happy enough, that he was waiting to be happier. I remember him saying to me when he was almost 70 years old that he was still waiting for his life to start. That's really sad isn't it?
These days I wait for Mr A's latest adventure...I always hope that the next one will be the one that earns some money to make our lives a little more comfortable and to stop me worrying so much. He is also the most accident prone person I have ever known, so I'm often waiting for the next accident or incident. I never have long to wait!
In my last post, he was on his way home. He obtained a refund for the unused stock...and off he went.
Just outside Izmir he had an accident. Well not him personally, but the car. As he was turning a corner one of the front wheels came off the car and hit another car. No-one was hurt. The damage to the other car was minimal and cost little to repair, which Mr A paid. But then most of the refund money was used to fix the wheel back onto our car.
So he finally came home, tail between legs (because he feels ashamed about this last venture, like others before, has not earned any money). I sent him straight off for a shower. He has been in the same clothes since Friday and the smell wasn't pleasant I can tell you! He saw little point in taking more clothes with him because he was sleeping in the car and wouldn't have been able to shower and change anyway.
Neither of us felt much like talking, so we waited until this morning to discuss future plans. We have two options. Either he goes away to somewhere like Istanbul to work for the winter, or he looks for a job locally. We both know that his being away from home has caused many problems between us this year, but there's not much in the way of work in this area. However, he has been into Milas this evening to see a man about some building work. There's nothing immediately, but if he waits a few more days, there's a possibility of some work for the winter. If that doesn't happen, then I'm afraid I'll just have to put up with him going away again.
So...here I am again...waiting.