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Friday, 22 June 2012

The End

Beki finally lost her battle with life today.

You may have noticed two of my posts on your reader list that are no longer there.  I had to delete them because they contained reference to the hope that I felt yesterday and this morning that maybe Beki was going to recover.

I'm not sure whether I was being given false hope by Mr A and the vet in Kusadasi, because I'm not there and couldn't see for myself.  All I do know is that the vet finally euthanised her because she was screaming.  You can't imagine how I feel about a faith that won't allow anyone but God to take a life, but it's followers can stand by and watch an animal suffer needlessly.

I was right.  They were wrong.  They didn't listen to me.  They walked all over me.  Here I am so far away, not even being able to say goodbye to my loyal friend.

Thankyou so much everyone for your support, kind words and good wishes throughout all this.  It has been appreciated much more than you will know.

23 comments:

  1. No words, Ayak, but big, big hugs. Axxxxxx

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  2. I am crying for you and Beki...such cruelty tears my heart! Thankfully she is at peace now. I don't understand either.

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  3. Her ordeal is now over, thank God.
    I can't think of anything else to say as its so awful except to accept my Hugs and Love. Maggie X

    Nuts in May

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  4. Dear Linda, I am so sorry to hear this news. Big big hugs my friend. It was a year yesterday since I had to have my Brandy put to sleep and know that it was the hardest thing I have had to do, I was there with her and it broke my heart. I know you too were willing to take that hurt for Beki to be out of pain and you have been denied the chance to be with there with her, your anger is justified and I am sorry that you have this to bear along with your sadness at losing Beki. Our lives are forever changed by owning such wonderful animals and I hope happier memories of your time with Beki will soon flood out the horror of this last few weeks. Give Poppy (houdini) an extra big love

    With love
    jaynexx

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  5. Yes, lots of love, so so sorry. Janice x

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  6. So sorry. Give Poppy a really big hug.

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  7. Dear Ayak: I'm so sorry that you, and your lovely Beki, have had to endure all this horrible time. So ghastly - at least over here in tne UK we'd never let a beloved animal suffer in that way. My Better Half and I have been through the agony of having to make the ultimate decision for many pets over the years, and it never gets any easier (we've cried for weeks), but at least we knew that the decision was the kindest and most loving we could make for our faithful friends. I do wish that Mr A could have come round to your point of view - his support would have been invaluable for you. I nearly married a Muslim many years ago, but I've known for years that my decision not to was the right one, as so many of our beliefs and cultural customes would have caused much pain for both of us. We grieve with you for Beki, and you have been, and are, in our prayers. Peace and comfort be with you.

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  8. Ayak, I am so very sorry to learn the sad news about Beki. I've been following her story even though I've not commented before.

    Like you I cannot begin to comprehend a faith that condones standing by and allowing a creature to suffer. Surely they could accept that their God has given them the means to end a life out of compassion? I will never understand how some people's minds work.

    Will your husband be bringing Beki back home? I know it will be scant consolation for not being able to say goodbye to her properly, but it might help a little and you can at least bury her in the home I'm sure she loved.

    Thinking of you and sending love and hugs.

    Maud xxx

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  9. So sorry for your loss! I am sure Beki know of your love!

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  10. I am sorry. At least she no longer suffers. How much better if they could have just done it sooner but in the end at least she asked to be let go and they did. Difficult times and hard for your poppy too, she will miss her. much love xxx

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  11. (((HUGS))) So sorry Ayak for your loss of dear sweet Beki. She knew she had a good and loved life and a lil' friend Poppy. You always took extra good care of her and she had a good and safe home. At least now she's over the 'rainbow' bridge and not suffering, but peaceful.
    My husband is a Turk Islam.....but he has taken a couple of our dogs over the years to be put down due to age and being very ill. He doesn't believe in letting the dogs suffer. I keep my dog pic on my avatar, we put her down a few years ago....
    Thinking of you and sending you lots of hugs and love.

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  12. Hi I have never left a comment on your blog although i have enjoyed reading it for quite some time now. I just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear about Beki. My thoughts are with you. Margaret x

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  13. Thankyou so much everyone for your kind words of sympathy and support. It is very much appreciated xxx

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  14. I am so very sorry to hear Beki didn't make it. There's a virtual hug coming your way from Ireland.
    It's hard when you know something needs to be done and the people around you don't listen, for whatever reason. It's happened to me many times. You're in my thoughts.

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  15. I just have to say another thankyou to you all. I have read and re-read all your comments...several times...and they are such a comfort to me.

    What lovely people you are xxxxxx

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  16. Oh my ... I am so sorry and sad that you were left out of the decision at the end. I hope you can remember that no matter what happened at her end of life, Beki had a much better quality of life than many dogs and you did your very best to care for her. ~ Elizabeth

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  17. Oh my ... I am so sorry and sad that you were left out of the decision at the end. I hope you can remember that no matter what happened at her end of life, Beki had a much better quality of life than many dogs and you did your very best to care for her. ~ Elizabeth

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  18. So sorry that your time with Beki had to end this way, Ayak, but at least she is finally out of pain and at peace. Hugs. Pxxx

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  19. Dear Ayak, i am just catching up on my blogs after several days away and I am so sorry to read your sad news. My deepest sympathy. The good memories will eventually outweigh the bad ones, and I am glad you will have the prospect of a visit from your daughter as a consolation. xxx

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  20. Thankyou again everyone for your kind words xxx

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  21. Oh, I am so so so sorry to hear this. The poor thing. She's much better off now and you made the right decision. She should have had to suffer anymore. Poor you. I hope you're feeling better soon.

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