Wednesday, 29 May 2013

OK let's start again

I was awake at around 4am.  In fact I had been awake on and off all night.  I decided to pass the time by writing a blog post.  It took quite some time.  Then I deleted it.

Why?  Because it was so gloomy.  I am depressed.  I am ill again.  Having had a nasty bout of flu as I left England on 30th April, followed by a day or so of feeling OK, I had what appeared to be tonsillitis.  That cleared up, then three days ago I started having stomach cramps, diarrhoea, feeling sick, loss of appetite.   I still have this bloody bug, but I am feeling better this afternoon.

I'm not one to generally wallow in self-pity but in the early hours of this morning I was feeling distinctly sorry for myself.  I've more or less been alone throughout this month of sickness, and I don't like it.  We all need to have someone to look after us when we feel unwell.  It's not possible for me at the moment.

So you think those first three paragraphs were gloomy?  You should have seen the original post!  But that's where the self-pity ends.

I have been cheering myself up today with videos on Youtube.  Trips down memory lane.  I was reminded of something my daughter told me recently.  She loves music.  She has a very eclectic taste. Anything from Frank Sinatra to The Beatles, The Who, Oasis, classical music.   Oh lots of stuff from way back to the present time.  She told me that her music of choice for doing housework to is Fleetwood Mac.  I can understand that perfectly, because I also play Fleetwood Mac  when I'm doing housework.



I don't feel much like doing housework today, but I have been playing a Fleetwood Mac cd just to get me in the mood.

And on my trip around Youtube last night, I indulged in a bit of 80s Bowie.


Another perfect track to help you through housework, don't you think?

18 comments:

  1. Everything seems to be terrible and worse than it actually is in the early hours. Add a dose of flu and tonsillitis and a husband working away and thats completely understandable. You are allowed to feel depressed from time to time!
    Enjoyed Fleetwood Mac.

    I'm hoping that you will soon feel very much better.
    Maggie x

    Nuts in May

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    1. Thanks Maggie. I'm already feeling a bit better. I found some medication suitable for bacteria infections in the stomach, which I had before, and a couple of doses later they seem to be helping.

      I love Fleetwood Mac...timeless.

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  2. I'm sorry you've been hit by illness again..and yes, it is horrible to be on your own when you could do with care and a cup of tea.
    I'm glad though that your daughter's idea for easing the housework came back to you and helped...as far as I'm concerned the only appropriate music for housework is a funeral march - I can just about keep up with that.

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    1. Haha that made me laugh Helen...the funeral march. Yes I get that..but I need something more lively to even muster up any enthusiasm for housework!

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  3. What a horrid bug you've had, Ayak. Tell it severely to go away now - muster those white blood corpuscles and get them fighting. I always imagine a real battle as I'm sure we can mentally affect our physical health (hmmm - and vice versa, which is a bit harder to manage!)
    Music is good for everything! Definitely helps housework, though not sure I agree with Helen's idea - it would make getting through it all take far too long. (Not that I want a funeral march at my funeral either - a nice jig will do fine for that.)
    I've enjoyed your Bowie blast - always liked him, always will. Do take care and don't over do the housework. Axxx

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    1. I also imagine a bit of a battle going on inside with these bugs Annie, and often mentally tell them just to f*** off! I love Bowie too. I watched a programme about him recently called Five Years. Lots of unseen footage...really interesting.

      Music always works for me!

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  4. Hi Linda! I have been a bit out of action for the last few weeks as have been away but now I am catching on all your blogs .. so sorry you haven't been well. Just get that music blasting!!! Get well soon! xx

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    1. Hi Claudia...yes I noticed..you have been travelling a fair bit recently! I'm feeling better this evening thankyou..music helps. xx

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  5. Sorry you've been feeling unwell again, Ayak. No wonder you felt so down in those depressing early hours of the morning. Glad to hear the music medicine worked. :-)

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    1. Thanks Perpetua. One bug on top of another can be very annoying, especially when it's so hot. I just keep playing the music :-)

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  6. Great musical choices! Fleetwood Mac are coming to Montreal next month and I'm hoping to win tickets - hope I don't feel like cleaning house during the concert :-)

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    1. Oh I do hope you win tickets Deniz. It will be such a treat. I'd love to see them live. xx

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  7. So sorry you have been hit by that nasty 'BUG' ....if I was near you I would bring you some tea and some chicken soup to make you feel better......I hate those nights that I can't sleep, turning and tossing non-stop. That would happen to me in Izmir, my back was killing me to sleep on the hard mattress....and soon as I would fall asleep near morning the Mosque guy would be calling the 'prayer' and there I was wide awake again.

    Glad you remembered your daughter's suggestion....music sometimes does wonders and makes you feel better and stops your mind wandering about something else.

    Get well soon and crank that music up....Geçmiş olsun!!!

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    1. Thanks Erica. Wouldn't it be lovely to have you here with chicken soup? It's so annoying when you can't sleep, especially for you when you're away from home.

      I'm cranking up the music as we speak!

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  8. Never pictured you being a Fleetwood Mac fan. The bugs have been going around. My son was sick for 2 weeks and my daughter a week.

    I hope you feel better soon.

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    1. Thanks Kelleyn. Your poor kids..hope they're better now.

      I think we can often be surprised at peoples' taste in music. Sometimes it doesn't fit the image in our minds.

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  9. Hi Ayak,
    sorry to hear that you are still ill, there have been nasty, long-lasting bugs here in winter, but that should be over now...

    Do you use Skype? I made it a habit of "meeting" old friends that live far away once a month via skype. Kitchen off limits for the family, some beer and chips and off we go, as if we were sitting side by side in the same room. It might help against loneliness, because the important bit is the talking.

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    1. You're so right Johanna. Talking is important. And yes I do use Skype, mostly with my daughter and grandsons. Although she is so busy at the moment that it doesn't happen as often as I'd like. I think that fact added to my feeling of isolation when I was feeling ill. I like the sound of your "meeting" up with your old friends in the kitchen. Webcams are a wonderful invention aren't they?

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